Though Sometimes I try to be sane, AmHaiq

Need i say more? =')

2011-03-31T13:47:00.001+08:00

I got one person to thank and that is MR SHEIKH FAWAZI

Let it go

2011-02-19T23:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in life you just have to let it pass, and time will make you stronger.
Right now nothing, NOTHING, has been good for me. being able to just walk and let mind get off things is the best that i can have. I miss the times when life was just so simple and everything is good.

But then again life is unfair. I am sucking it up. I hope this ends before i start poly. I hope so.
I admit, im not an angel myself but at least i try my very best. I did.

And what already happened, happened and i cant turn time to repent or regret cause NOW is present and I need to start from now.Lesson learnt mistakes made, its my choice not to repeat it.

I am in need to fix myself, in need of the joy i used to have. May life has more great things to offer me. So im just letting it go. LET IT GO.

this is old. but i wanna reblog

2011-01-28T22:59:00.001+08:00

This was mine:-

My mind is playing around with my love angel. Sometimes I wonder how We made it through the fights we went through where we scream at each other and getting other people witnessing our fights. At the end of the day, it is still you I turn to. You will be the first whom I will check on when I'm in facebook, every morning when I wake up to see if there is any text messages from you. I don't mind looking at you every single time when I'm with you. I don't care if people say you are not as good looking or masai. You are still twinkling in my eyes. I wonder how you would still tolerate with my shopping habits and eating habit (especially). I would love to sit with you by the beach with our toes in the sand and drawing heart shapes on the sand with our name in it. It is no more me and you. It is Us.

The reply:-

im not obligated to do this nor im forced to, but i just felt that i would really love her to know how im feeling, A letter to my gf.

Dear baby,

the only reason im in love with you is the reason why youre in love with me. Its because you make me fall in love again. i thank you for that. I that god for making you appear in my pathetic life, you made it all sunshine again.

Sometimes fights and arguments are just unavoidable and we went through it, yes we did. eventhough it sucks to knw and have that moment. I call you all sorts and i still dun knw why youre here? You tolerated me enough and i have no idea if i had given you enough.

all things aside, i do try my best and i thank you for tolerating. i love you syg and nothing people say can change that. :) all the things i look forward in the day is you. and everything i do, i will only see you. :) so baby, if u ever feel like giving up, always remember IM HOT AND TOO SEXY TO LET GO! hehehehe.. no la. err just remember i can never stop loving you.

Regards,
AM

what do you know?

2011-01-20T20:59:00.001+08:00

do you even care what will i be doing at this very moment?
do you even think abt us at all? minus being in bed
do you even know what you do wrong?
do you even know or wanna know how are things on my side?
do you understand what is the situation with me?
judging by things you always say im annoying and i am always not happy with things.

do you know your attention on the webcam or smses means the world to me?
do you even understand why i compare?

i know i can never give whatever you do or given me, but im trying to be the best of what i can. I dun want stuffs or things, i just want your attention even for 5 mins.

everytime when there is a fight between us u run. u sleep. u go offline.
what does that make me? I can never be the perfect one nor the most romantic one. but im trying and if i have not tried enough then tell me.

i asked u to think how we can make things better with us. but so far i have no ans.

for once in skype or emails, have u asked me how am i? hows things?
i have been the one asking if u had ur lunch or dinner. or what have u been up to. maybe sometimes when u share, i may sound not interested, but at least i was there listening.

tell me a date or time did u ever ask how am i. or what is going on. or when my results coming out? its tmrw btw.

saddening or not. u make me wait. EVERYTIME. cmon baby, everytime physically or virtually. im not complaining. im just stating the facts. its hard for myself to feel this way cause i might be nagging alot right now. youre having fun with ur frens, i know. spare a tiny tot for me here.

hows work? or hows the food? hmmm.

asking is just something that will really make my day. i will be lying if i say its enough, but u being far away thats the best things ever.

its hard everytime seeing you and ur attention is always diverted to somewhere else. i may not be as good as huever. but hey, trying baby i am.

fahriyah..

2010-11-14T16:03:00.002+08:00

This is the girl i fell in love with and Im still in love with her. its been 7 months baby.

and I hope of many more months to come baby. I love you sweetie. :):)

and in this pic you look so smelly.. ;)

need i say more?

2010-11-13T17:13:00.003+08:00

Stop acting like things are better now okay?

IM PISSED ENOUGH.

So long.

2010-11-12T22:20:00.002+08:00

EHEM EHEM. its been awhile since i updated this blog of mine. WOW! I have no idea what to blog about actually. I have been busy i think. Not much going on. I just wanna scream real quick!

I kinda hate you at the moment so please.....!

Your wish is my command.

OKAY IM DONE.

Selfish? i think you are.

But then again, you just don't know how much you mean the world to me. I love the way you are. I miss you all the time. It hurts to hear what you say. Well, its kinda funny when you say you had my respect for you when you don't even know how to respect me.

you pushed me to the limit. I swear i wanna punch your face so bad. But what different does it make me compare to other guys out there if i were to do that right?

Youre going off soon, and i pray hard you will come back and learn how to cherish me. Or maybe not that it maybe something else. I hope. Im no perfect either love, but hey.. Im trying hard now.

Please do me a favor will ya? Take good care of yourself when youre there. and if you do turn your back against me once more, I got nothing more to say other than goodbye.

Left behind?

2010-10-26T13:36:00.001+08:00

Its alright

I wanted to...

2010-09-13T20:05:00.002+08:00

this is the time of my life i want to just runaway..

i have to refuse. i have to move.

i wanna .................

i wanna....................

i wanna.................

i wanna...................

i wanna..................

i wanna...................

there is so much things i wanna................... now..

but i cant i need to refuse. i need to move. :"(

what you want

2010-09-13T00:16:00.003+08:00

Really its very annoying.

What do you want? you're making things very confusing

You want me to stay and not ignore you? Then how are we supposed to move on?

You don't wanna give me hope? Then by staying it will gimme hope.

You hid alot of things behind my back.

And now you're slowly looking at them. So I'm supposed to stay and be a fool and you jolly well move on and have fun in your life?

Eh, if you forget i have a life too. Im not some doll sia.

Kau NAK APER???????????????????????????? TLG LA.

No longer a part of me

2010-09-06T14:57:00.001+08:00

youre no longer a part of me. and i knw its something that its really taking a toll on me.

you are different when you are around me and you are really different in the smses and on the phone.

im pissed right about now. but at the same time im not gonna blame you. you do what you have to. KARMA IS A BLOODY BITCH. its not gonna bite you now, its gonna bite u later.

i will just let it pass. you will see what i mean

Empty

2010-08-31T21:45:00.002+08:00

EMPTY

A HOLE IN THE HEART

A PAIN THAT I HAVE TO BARE

GET UP ON MY FEET

A TEST THAT I HAVE TO FACE

MAY GOD BLESS YOU IN WHATEVER YOU DO

I DO LOVE YOU AND NOW?

I DON'T KNOW

ramadhan

2010-08-12T05:35:00.003+08:00

I believe i dun spend much time with her now. well, its not entirely because of ramadhan, i guess its just that we are both busy with our own stuff.

I feel that we are closer at heart. Im sorry if i haven make much time for you. but then again, if i were to complain, we do meet each other every weekend at work. we've been great, then again, im finding ways just to slip time in between to give her attention.

3 more months and shes off to U.S. hmm ?

Sidetrack; School has been hectic, so to speak. today is the 2nd day of ramadhan. doing well. But im afraid the output is not as much as the input for these 2 days. hahaa. Annoying kaper. I have maths today. More to come i supposed.

More tests and more projects deadline. hmm.... too many things to do too little time. faster let me off so i can spend time with the smelly girl.

and now she wants to be online to see me. WTH. hahahaa..

PS: school is just mentally tiring. :):)

sorry?

2010-07-27T00:22:00.003+08:00

I once had a rose but the thorns poked me so bad and now i found another one and to me
she has the sweetest smile i can ever ask for i had to let my wound heal in time to find this rose. i thank god i found you amongst other roses.

and though we have our times you still find a way to make me smile.

I love you smelly dot dot.. :)

i just wonder,

2010-07-10T01:30:00.002+08:00

I cried for her all night and this is what her reply:-

What the fuck is happening? I dont want to cry to sleep every single night, and cry waking up the next morning thinking how awful yesterday's night was. Im tearing every single minute yesterday while my eyes are shut close. Hearing you cry, make me feel so helpless not knowing what to do.

she is the reason i wake up everyday and looking at this i will still look at her in the eyes and let her know how much i love her.

there is so much to say

2010-07-09T21:54:00.000+08:00

There is so much to say to you, prolly.. I will just
Write it down,
I love you baby girl I really do, but, whatever you
Say got me thinking am I really good enougjh for you?
You wanted to give up, just because of yest, we dun
Get to talk abt things we always disagree and we never comply
To each other. I'm really sorry, sometimes what I
Do I dun tell you my reasons. I dun knw maybe you had better love before
Me, maybe you din I have no idea.. But babyy, I can never knw why sometimes
We fight over small reasons and wheb it comes to the day itself everything went well
I have no idea why.. Haish..

If you are wondering what the dun knw is abt this is it. I DON'T KNOW

Im not obligated to

2010-07-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

im not obligated to do this nor im forced to, but i just felt that i would really love her to know how im feeling, A letter to my gf.

Dear baby,

the only reason im in love with you is the reason why youre in love with me. Its because you make me fall in love again. i thank you for that. I that god for making you appear in my pathetic life, you made it all sunshine again.

Sometimes fights and arguments are just unavoidable and we went through it, yes we did. eventhough it sucks to knw and have that moment. I call you all sorts and i still dun knw why youre here? You tolerated me enough and i have no idea if i had given you enough.

all things aside, i do try my best and i thank you for tolerating. i love you syg and nothing people say can change that. :) all the things i look forward in the day is you. and everything i do, i will only see you. :) so baby, if u ever feel like giving up, always remember IM HOT AND TOO SEXY TO LET GO! hehehehe.. no la. err just remember i can never stop loving you.

Regards,
AM

Probably im so in love that people who follows my blog will puke their dinner out. hehehe.
on the other note.
for you my friend just chill ok. i acknowledge you presence its just that i dun want to. :) just act nothing happened and i guess we are doing great this way.

I wonder how I wonder why

2010-06-25T13:21:00.002+08:00

dadaaadaaaaaaadaaaaaaa..........

Ok im mad like really mad no but im calming down. I just feel like hitting someone in the face and
slice them up.

thats how much anger i feel inside. I realise saying the word fuck you is not enough. but then again, FUCK YOU BIG TIME.

Selfish? Guess so?
Changed? you did.
so dun tell me u din. :)
Im holding on to the end. and my limits are over. So dun let me do it. ARGH.

on another note im finishing up my project.
like finally, and nobody to help me? haha.. meeting has later yeay! long time no see!
i wanna stay out late tonight. very late!

I just don't get you; Beach with the girl

2010-06-21T22:41:00.003+08:00

Sumpah, i just don't get it.

and,I have a date with the girl tomorrow

love u smelly cat

3 days only

2010-06-15T03:11:00.002+08:00

im missing you like fugg.. eventhough its just 3 days. BABY COME HOME QUICK!
I cannot take it anymore.
hmmmm...

hurry ok syg!

2010-06-10T14:34:00.003+08:00

I need you now. I'm all alone and i need you now. :(

2010-06-08T00:04:00.003+08:00

I will not say much,
but this post from her made my day.
www.fhryh.blogspot.com
I love you.
I can never know why i can never knw how,
you light up my day.

I love you fahriyah abdul rahman.

Shingles + Emotions = SUCKY WEEK

2010-05-24T20:22:00.002+08:00

its just monday and its been draggy. WHY?
Because im diagnosed with SHINGLES. For those who don't know what the hell is that, its the MOTHER OF CHICKEN POX. trust me, it hurts big time.
Instead of feeling itchy, you will feel pain, its stuck somewhere in your nerves and the only time it will come out is when your immunity level is low or STRESS.
that is not the best part yet, its CONTAGIOUS. those who does not have chicken pox before will get it. not shingles you will get chicken pox.

Im stuck at home for 5 days, and my gf refuse to meet me. :(:( sad enough?
I guess she is afraid she might bring home the virus to maliki (baby)
not only that im gonna miss alot of school, which means i have to double up my pace. SUCK ain't it?
haishh..

and its really getting to my brain cause im emotionally unstable. the pain is like FUCK i tell you.
I wanna go back to school,
I wanna run around,
I wanna be kissed
I wanna be hugged
I wanna be kissing you. :(

and and and, i have to eat at least 10 tablets a day excluding the pain killers and itch med. NABEH. I sound like a bloody chronic sick patient huh?
DAMMIT.

ARGHHHHHHHHH... i wanna go out! PLEASE.

Im just speechless.

2010-05-17T19:57:00.001+08:00

I have no idea what or how am i supposed to react. I have no reason to be angry. I have no reason to be happy as well. So yeah, i feel that empty. I got no say in any of the emails i read. But guess I know what you mean.

I can never be "man" enough. I can never give you what you had last time. Really. Neither do i have what she has nor i wanna be like her. haish. its not easy to understand me. and reading that gave me an idea of what you are like.

You are just a simple girl loooking for love, contented with every little thing you have. hmm.. It got me thinking. Am i good enough for you? Am i gonna be able to care for you?

Still,

insecure

2010-05-12T03:27:00.002+08:00

insecure-:

subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured

not confident or certain; uneasy; anxious

out of all this i think the word fear and doubt comes to play right now. I dun knw if im thinking too much or not. It sets me thinking. It makes me wonder. Im not gonna say much, Im not gonna think so much.

all i know is i love you and i really do. if that wont work then i got nothing more to offer cause i can only shower you with my love. I think i've fallen hard for you.

Im annoyed and irritated

2010-05-11T20:37:00.003+08:00

I guess its POST menstrual syndrome. SIS is really annoying me about her ex, wow the best part is dad didnt even bother to tell me he wore my crocs. WOW.
Thanks people I have enough problems to deal with.

Okay, adding to that, PM (PROJECT MANAGEMENT) is really bugging me. cause ya know, every week we have to present. and every week its about the same thing. HAIYA.. trust me nobody is looking forward to class at all.

Please someone help us kind souls get through this annoying hurdle. :(

to my baby girl, hang in there okay. =( i miss you too

70^3

2010-05-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

Time spent. It was worthwhile. Cloud No.9
I dun need a parachute baby, if got you. Love!

I miss this particular person

2010-05-05T20:28:00.003+08:00

School just started for her on monday. Its hard for us to meet, and adding to that dreadful story, Im sick. DAMN. I miss spending time with this girl. Hmm..

Just so you know eventhough i dun tell you all the time, youre missed dearly.
We shall find a day kay baby.. LOVE YOU

2010-04-26T16:13:00.002+08:00

ELLO BABY!
You are cooking while im just plain lazy to help you out in the kitchen..
I kept looking at you because everything is so surreal..
I love you!

Lotsa love, your adorable one. heeeeeeeeee

It feels right but some things are just in the way

2010-04-23T08:15:00.002+08:00

everything feels so right now.
there is more to come.
I know its not easy for you to be in the middle.
but i guess we gotta think and sort things out a little.
I just wish at times you just don't have to care.
hmm..

:(:(

when you told me

2010-04-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

I cant stop staring at you.
I cant stop thinking of you.
You gave me butterflies when you told me you love me.
I'm excited everytime i get to spend time with you.
Those little kisses you plant on my lips, on my cheeks gave me butterflies.
I love you baby. :D

The stress and love

2010-04-17T23:10:00.002+08:00

Stressful at work.
You are so near yet sop far. I love you.
Having you around me was really something. hahahaha..
:):)

you know why now

2010-04-16T10:44:00.001+08:00

You made me feel complete
you make fall in love.
you never fail to make me smile with your text messages.
i miss you.
i miss your touch.
i miss everything about you.

ILY.

Its been a while

2010-04-14T20:29:00.001+08:00

I guess im falling deep into you. it just feels so right now that I don't want it to stop.
Im wondering if u do feel the same. hmm...
Well, i guess this is what they call love.

:):)

Partied. Work. Phuket. School.

2010-04-12T08:04:00.003+08:00

I partied hard during the holidays. I worked hard. alot has been going on and everything is in a mess. My results were not whati expected agin. but i made it. Alhamdullilah...
Adding to all that i deserved a holiday. Went to phuket. for 4 days, came back and worked again, till yesterday. And today, Im schooling. Well apparently im supposed to go out of the house now yet im still busy blogging. HEEE..

Im bored la cannot blame. ahahhaa.. okgotta get my shoes ready. and im out!

Updates Updated

2010-03-18T23:17:00.004+08:00

Well, life has been great. I have my ups and downs.
So far, its more ups then downs.
I love the company i have at the moment. Loving every minute of it

o.0 this is very random, Im starting to use body cream foot cream and im taking care of my skin.
Oh wow! hahahaa...

I have no time to update what is going on in my life cause Im busy working at the moment. Working non-stop. I cant wait for my next off day. so tired can..
I cant wait for phuket! April here i come.

Suddenly i miss gelek joms. I have no idea when can I meet them. Hmmm.. tell me when?
GUYS I MISS YOU! MEET UP SOON OK!! :):)
wells i think i shall end here cause apparently this post aint going anywhere.

I miss the only person that Im not supposed to

2010-03-14T23:59:00.003+08:00

I miss you so bad
I miss you so bad
I miss you so bad
I miss you so bad
I miss you so bad

I realised that my mind is moving on but not my heart. Im dealing with it. At least I think Im trying.

One down one more to go.

2010-03-10T03:02:00.002+08:00

One paper on monday and another one today and Im done!

WOOHOO.. Phuket here i come! I can't wait.

Im talking to ALUS on the phone now. Cause apparently I'm abit scared after lsitening to the misteri jam 12. Scary.. hahaha.. after today I will start working my butt off. hahaha.. BORING I know. I wanna rest but I can't. hmm.. Im soo tired.

Oh by the way, I wanna go CANADA please!! please!!

ok done. Nights

i miss her. How?

Unnecessary Stress

2010-02-25T22:53:00.004+08:00

You are my unnecessary stress right now.

Please i have enough burden right now.

Do not add to it please.

2010-02-25T22:53:00.001+08:00

Is it me? or is it them?

2010-02-25T00:32:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder is it what i say or my actions? I have no idea cause apparently, I am outspoken and sometimes or maybe most of the time i say things without thinking. I can be a very pain in the ass, annoying, cocky, absent minded and very outspoken. I wanna learn how to control these few problems of mine.

I don't want to be perfect Im no angel. hmm? Im under alot of pressure that in this period of time right now, everything just piss me off. Not only that, I can say things without thinking. I wanna be free at this moment.

I can hurt someone without knowing what is going on. My mouth will just blurt things out. I wanna stop. I need to learn how to accept things the way they are. No more being rebellious. I need to tone down. err.. GOSH its a handful actually. :(

On the bright side. i have a few birthday wishes for this month.

on 25th Feb. Hidayah birthday.

My emo and round friend. You always lighted the class with your jokes and laughter. You can be emo at times and sometimes i just don't understand you, yet for your age you have given me some great advice. thanks friend. I love you for that. you are just someone who will bright up someone's life. So be happy always. and adding to that you are legal as well!! yeayy!! hehehe.. ENJOYSS.

on 22nd Feb. Siti Fairuz birthday.

My small and annoying friend whom i got to know in ITE Dover. You might not be the greatest advisor, but i thank you for just listening. the fights we had just makes us closer in one way or another. I know on your birthday wasn't what you expected, so sorry for that. But I will make up to you ok? till then your legal. and you can help me buy cigarettes now! yeay!!!.. you are just awesome! heheh.. love you babe.

on 11th Feb. Raihanah's birthday.

My dark coloured friend. hehe.. 7 years of friendship. I still love you babe. Ure the greatest friend. being there most of the time. I thank you for that. I thank you for being patient enough to withstand my nonsense for the past 7 years :D:D and ure getting older faster get married ok. hehe.. LOVE YOU.

GUESS THATS AL FOR THIS MONTH. :D:D

Im screwed! Im TELLING YOU

2010-02-17T16:04:00.003+08:00

Im super screwed right now. I just did the test. IM SCREWED.
Now im in the lab, supposedly i have to key in my CCA POINTS. Well i keyed in way earlier so im just here to use the net actually.

Ok now back to im screwed. I need to start studying but i don't know when. SOMEONE HELP..!!!!
ARGH...!!!

ok dah.. I dun know what to blabber about now, Alus is beside me blogging as well, and Fyda too.. Aper nak jadi ni kiter orang.. hahhahaa.. aper sajer..

OK DAH. I dun wanna drag this post any longer.

P.s : Taufiq lost alot of weight sia!!

Something tells me

2010-02-16T19:15:00.001+08:00

Do you remember when you told me to never forget you?

Well, I think its time to.
Takecare. LOVED you.

Its my turn to complain.

2010-02-10T18:40:00.004+08:00

You are 'A'

When will you learn? You left me for a year now you come back and tell me you wanna be friends. How am i supposed to feel. You asked me "If you are not fine with it then its ok. " wtf. I am fine with you being friends with me. Not that Im not. But its ironic. The fact that you are still with her. OMG are you stupid or what. Eventhough now you just broke up with her does not mean I have to believe everything you say. Well, you lie too much.

Dont come telling me you have been saying sorry for the past few days that you talked to me on the phone. Cause you fucking jolly well deserve it. Same goes as saying this KARMA IS A BITCH! Deal with it!

AND nowyou are telling me that you are afraid to meet her cause she will beat you again? KAN MEPEK TU! why must you be scared of her in the first place. You wanted it soo much the last time. face it la! Im saying this because I am mad. You never did listen to me last time and yet now you are complaining to me. KAU KELAKAR KAPER. Im not some one who you can just pick me up when you want to then after that you throw me one side like a trash.

Yes you realise your mistake, but Im sorry im not turning back to you. Cause you are one big liar who actually made me feel like a bloody fucking fool last time. so yeah. IM DONE WITH YOU :D still we are friends but not what we use to have or how close we use to be. k dah!

You are 'B'

Does it take a miracle for you to realise you hurt me? How sometimes i wish you would just msg me and say hi. But no. You are just too busy. Trust me, if i can say its all bullshit in your face right now I will. Cause it is bullshit. You can make time for others and not me. I can say this and i think i will still stick to what im thinking,Im not up to the standard to be friends with you kan? We will wait and see ok babe.

You wasted my time seriously. Im mad for you being ignorant again and again. When you were crying who was listening to you, no matter how late or how draggy it was? aarh.. SUDAH LA KAU. you promised eh, but then again, it was meant to be broken anyways. I expected that from you. You are the same as 'A' you picked me up when you need to. then throw me away. Im sick and tired of trying. Making the friendship work eh. Not more. Still you dont make an effort. FUCK YOU! seriously.

You got me! You made me believe you. Well done! I give you credits. But trust me. If i see you outside, I will act as if I dont know you. Please do not come and say hi to me. cause i dont need that from you. I hope you will get back what you bloody hell deserve.

ok longgggggggggg post and i feel better!

Happy, contented, LOVED

2010-02-08T14:05:00.002+08:00

Im loving the company around me.

Im contented with what i have for now. Im loved.

Kidd bouhgt me a lighter and a t-shirt at zouk's flea market.

Im so touched cannn.

Err.. went out with yati the other day. Together with fatin.

Bought guess bag for her mum. NOT MY MONEY la kann..

errr.. Very random.

Someone is back. i dun know should i smile or avoid.

HMMM.. Well, I just have to wait and see :)

My Idea of myself.

2010-02-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

Im so stucked to this chinese zodiac thing. I can eat and have dinner in front the laptop just to read it! hahaha..
Well I'm born in the year of the horse. So, its quite true in a way.

HAHAHAHAA...i give the link u read lor.. apparently blogger abit bodoh! ahahha cannot copy paste la cann...or isit pmsing? hmmm..
http://www.usbridalguide.com/special/chinesehoroscopes/Horse.htm
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Im back on track

2010-02-02T00:41:00.002+08:00

Recently,
School burnt.
Work is great.
Having fun.
Clubbing was Fun.
Got what I wanted.
Working out.

Still pending,
Waiting.
Dates.
Projects.
Bonus.
Love.

Past.
YOU.
YOU.
Fights.
Arguments.

hmm. I guess thats about it. Im back on track. I wanna get things right. I have enough love to go around. Still, i do miss cuddling up with someone. :( hahaha.. Pathetic kan.
haha. But whatever that aside, Im still alive sia. Not that im dying or anything. :):)
My workplace is my baby, my babies are my hot and sexy friends! :):)
And yeah.. LETS JUST BE HAPPY.

meet me halfway.

What a drag = MONDAY, More fun = WEEKENDS

2010-01-25T11:36:00.002+08:00

Its monday.
BORING.
Dragging myself to school.
OMG I CANT BE BOTHERED.
Boring shit.

Weekends,
MORE BEER.
MORE FUN.
more dates.
Looking forward to that. :):)

ok this post is going no where. its very random. Im off to shower, im late for school.
Wait who cares?

TIRED. SICK OF IT.

2010-01-21T20:36:00.003+08:00

Im tired to care anymore.
I let you judge me for all i care.
I cared enough and this is what i get.
I find it abit petty for me to even blog about this.
But seriously, you don't even bother to know what is going on with me in the first place.
Jokes I can still take it.
look at how I am.

You don't even ask.
SORRY is a word which is very hard to pronounce i guess.
You win.

And you stop telling me to be whatever and ever.
I know you're joking, maybe you should draw a line somewhere
I don't wanna entertain it cause i think its best to keep quiet and let you have the laugh.
I deserve some respect abit here and there.
Please.

School is a bloody annoying shit now. Serious.
Im trying hard to cramp everything now.
Im trying hard to keep it together.
Im no SUPERMAN. Im no ROBOT.
Im breaking down. SERIOUSLY I AM.
Lets just say. Im giving up.

I give up

2010-01-19T19:10:00.002+08:00

I had it up to the limit. I broke down. Yet again. I cannot take it anymore.
Effort is all i ask for. Not hard ain't it.
Isit so hard?

OMG. I had to let go. Im feeling like FUCK right now.
thanks to you people. I just don't understand why isit hard enough to see what is coming for us?

Goodluck eh. Im no longer caring.

The more I try

2010-01-16T12:17:00.002+08:00

The more I tried the harder it is to let go. When I feel that Im ready, you just pop up out of nowhere and make me fall in love all over again. But still, you ask me to move on.

Im confused.

BABe BABy. I wanna make full use of the time now when you are not here. Please. I dun know what to do.

If only the brain has a delete button

2010-01-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

you know when people say " your brain works like a computer" well only if it has the fuctions of a computer it would be perfect. Cause right now, how I wish there is a delete button to it.

No recycle bin no refresh button not this two. I just want the delete button. It will really help. I wanna delete certain things right now. DELETE.

Im slowly doing it cann..
Im doing it now,

5.....
4....
3...
2..
1.

DELETED!

A productive time spent with yati

2010-01-14T00:13:00.003+08:00

As usual Im always late for my date. Im sorry to make u wait for 45 min. SORRY LORRRRR... Bus ride was a bitch, everybody is playing the bitch today. Including me. Peace guys.

ok whatever. Walked back home with yati and zai. I walked everywhere today! yeay..
Yati and me had things to talk about. SO we did. But this crazy friend of mine decided not tell me that she has a test the following day cannn?? aiyoo.. GUESS WAD WAS HER TEST? TCP/IP! hahaha..

My favourite! I had to wake my dear RUZAINI from sleep to lend the book. he was sweet enough to wake up and meet us under his blk. Life saviour! hehehe.. hmmm.. I love the fact that we did something productive today. At least she learnt something.

Cikgu was helping out as well. I had to call and ask him la! my bad! i forgot some of it can! hahahaha...

But seriously, it was a super happy time. I kinda miss midnight study la. omg. I cant wait to start my engine!

To yati, I really hope you can at least pass the test. Love you babe! hahaha..

Mistakes made.

2010-01-11T19:04:00.008+08:00

Im taking time to actually post something here. OMG.
Ok, here it goes, im officially screwed cause Im feeling it again.
Feeling what Im feeling like 2 years ago.

Im confused, yes. I have always been but this time its bloody major.
But yet, i took a time out to actually think and decide.
I've decided and I will try to stick to it.

i know its hard enough for you not to forget her. At the very least i will try to move on. I FEEL LIKE FUCK NOW.

TWO more freaking days

2010-01-03T15:04:00.002+08:00

Im excited yes, cause i will be meeting her soon! wooohoo.. but at he back of my mind im thinking; Missing school for the whole week.. that ain't a good idea! hahahha

hmm... but still, as what zai said, life is about taking risk. so yeah, im taking it.. I am going for it!

UP to the Max

2010-01-02T11:26:00.003+08:00

Im really pissed off with some people.

Accusation.

Real shit.

Wow, Happy new year.

Though Im pissed, Im quite sad.

Im really wondering what I do to deserve this.

I needed someone, nobody was there.

Even my closest one.

MATI LA.

now i really know where i stand.

HAPPY NEW YEAR la ehhhh

2009-12-31T11:06:00.002+08:00

Right, new year eve. Im seriously bored cause I may not have plans later on So i maybe staying at home for the countdown. DARN it. anyways, new year, mean new challenges ahead for me.

I quit my job, in order for me to have time for school. I hope things will turn out better for me the next year. Damn, im thankful that my lady luck has been with me all this time. I learnt alot this year and i will never stop learning. this year I made wonderful frens, those who stay and those who were just the "hi, hi, bye, bye" frens.

hmm.. there will be alot for me to think about tonight before the the year turns 2010.
2010!!

guess i shall hang out near my place and think about stuff before tmrw starts. Aites, i think thats about it. :):)

The Nut and screws are back in SIngapore

2009-12-18T11:48:00.002+08:00

Home sweet home, me and the gelek Joms are back in singapore after 9 days of course and screw loose in Malacca. yeay.

hahaha.. Not that yeay la, I don't wanna come back home actually! ahhaha.. I was sick all the way till my last day. Sadded or what, But i acted as if im not sick.
We ate alot there! hahaha.. FAT.

The daily roti canai, regular seafood. ALAMAKK.. hahaha.. but then we enjoyed each other's company. I must say within that 9 days we learnt alot from each other. each other's attitude and stuff. But the bottom line is we all did ENJOY..

We made friends. Memories there are solely treasured. SHOPPING was one of the main things I enjoyed most hahaha..

This opportunity is really a memorable one and I can't thank Mr sheikh enough. He is the nut and we are his screws! heheeh. :):)

Lets Run from the hectic world

2009-12-02T00:37:00.002+08:00

I wanna get away from here soon.. so hectic, no time to actually sit and relax.
WORK, SCHOOL. walau wei.. Im no super mannn... WHATCHA sayy???

hahaha.. anw, I still feel I need to get something before i head off to melaka. I can't wait. hmmm... and yeah, income running low arh. how? ahahahaha..

ALA JANJI ENJOY LA KANNN..

ok nak sleep.. see you soon melake

and alus going off tmrw! hmmm.. Im gonna miss her lame jokes for 3 days. but den again, i wan my redbull singlet! thanks alus!

Movie Date.

2009-11-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

Thank you for the movie date, thank you for the cupcakes, thank you for the hug. I appreciate it.

Much loved!!!! :):)

and this brighten up my pathetic day; ZEEDA email

Loveyou babe. and to SUCCESSFUL movie date. MUCH LOVED. :):)

Repeat after me.

2009-11-20T22:58:00.001+08:00

Repeat after me, " I am BUSY!"
haha.. been busy lately, and lets not make this particular blog of mine an abandoned one. hahaha..

Been busy with school and work! haha.. I had 2 practical test today, one is my IACT practical test and My motorbike practical test, well, its not exactly a test, more to a motor bike practical lesson. hmmm.. I passed, yes. But I have along way to go. I will not be taking it anytime soon. cause, i will be away for a very long time.

hmm.. YIKES this netbook is crazy it keep on lagging and it get hanged all the time. tell you wad i end here before I have to log in for the 4th time.

CHAOS!

EMPTY? plain

2009-11-12T17:55:00.002+08:00

IM trying HARD not to be bothered.

You affected my MOOD. PERIOD.

i need a hug. ANYONE??

Should I.. Errrr...

2009-11-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

Ok this is it, I know what Im aiming for, my license and studies!

ok fine this is not the reason why i wanna blog, this is the actual reason, Im starting to think that it is starting all over again, Im sick and tired of it, really. mampos la kau, sometimes its rather annoying to know and its irritating not to know. Geddit? if you don't den nemy. haishh..

Can I just say its that time of the year again. Should I wait, or should I just act that nothing really happened. Or the best one ever be ignorant? hmmm....

I have no idea. damn the whole idea of being acquainted. Mati la kau..

OK anyways, 2 months and 12 days more to go...
MISS YOU LA DEYYYYY.. come back quick.
meantime, lets just say Im holding on...

Blah can?

2009-11-09T10:03:00.001+08:00

Kadang-kadang kan... I'm trying so hard not to hurt you. But I'm saying this here, just to let it go.

FUCK YOU LAAAA!!!

ok zeeda is coming back sooon.. Babe i miss you.. 22nd January ok.. see ya..

What to do?? HELP..

2009-11-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

I realised that I will be spending more money on DECEMBER. This are a few of the things and trips that will make me loose more money.

Melaka trip = $$
KL = $$
Class Chalet = $$

Haish.. What do I do. I wanna lend money from loan shaark cannnn.. hahaha... ok lame la..
Its really annoying that I have to have all these events on December itself. Not saying, its annoying literally its annoying because I have not enough la.

Oh nooooo...

Mummy help me cannn????

Pay day

2009-10-31T01:01:00.002+08:00

Enrolled

spent

Didn't get to buy what i wanted

Picked Yati up from school

Spent annoying time with her.

Bought Havainas instead.

I did what i had to today, spent quite alot. Im looking forward to monday so i can finish my practical.

I do thank yati for the time spent.

can i meet you again soon?? hahha..

I'm complaining

2009-10-25T23:41:00.002+08:00

Tired.

Sleepy.

Annoyed.

Bodyache.

Ookkkkk...... I'm done complaining.. ZZZzzzZZZZzzzz.........

work = tired

2009-10-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Time passed by really fast today eventhough it was a hot and humid day. The weather forecast was annoyingly wrong la. Ok cannot blame them, they are not god to predict the weather.

I had a blast working with shikin, but tomorrow I have to brace myself cause Im working with the moonwalker (macam paham nyer keling)

ok btw, these are my colleagues. we showered and they all procceed to the food court which i didn't follow, sorry guys, last minute sey... I promise next time i overnight ok!

hhehee.. this pic is missing out on SHEEREEN, and WILSON. yang tak perlu takyah ehh.. hehe.. HAB is missing as well as she was the one who took the photo.

Happy happy people!!!

TRUST OR NOT

2009-10-23T18:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you have friends who have been through thick and thin with you, you tend to love them, and sometimes even if they are being a pain in the ass, you tend to ignore.

Doesn't mean being through everything with you, you can totally trust them. They can be someone you can HATE after a small petty fight.

Stupid but wad can I do right. Seriously at times when you think that friend of yours is someone you can trust, you BETTER THINK TWICE, because you won't know what they will bitch about you behind your back.

At times I wonder can I really trust the people around me now? Its a tough question to be answered, I intend to not to answer it for now.hmm...

Lets just say, at times I do feel insecure.

On the brightside, I'm doing all the activities at work tomorrow, plus MUMMY WON'T BE AT HOME TILL SUNDAY. She is heading to batu pahat lorrr...
The weekends to myself. Happy or what.

psst! I have been eating alot lately and its bothering me haisshh.. I think I should start doing something about it.

Gambar- Gambar lambat..

2009-10-20T21:52:00.003+08:00

These pictures are very2 old trust me.. its way before ramadhan and also hari raya, blame it on my stupid lappie which choose to breakdown on me again. so yeah

Sometimes - kadang-kadang kan

2009-10-20T20:24:00.003+08:00

Aku ni emo sikit, jadi klu nak bace ni kene tahan sikit la yerrr....

Ok I miss having someone to love la kan sebenarnye....
hahaha.. ok dats all for my emo part

now lets see.. Im working tomorrow. damn it. Lets make noise la kan..
But But, I got no school la tomorrow, happy or what. and the day after tomorrow i start school at 12. Happy or what.

Alus and yaya was lepaking at my place today. YEAY.. and Alus sesungguhnyer telah jumper my G-spot eh.."Geli, But i like la" Thats her definition of G spot. Selenger.

Im soo happy on one more note, yaya cut hair already la!! hehheee.. die da tipis kan rambut ehh.. heheehe... ok other than that i got nothing else to blabber about hehe...

Peace, and sesungguhnyer aku makan bnyk nari! hish.

2nd day and I feel like declaring the whole week Holiday

2009-10-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

its the second day of school, and i feel like doing it. Declaring it a holiday. Oh god, guess what I do not have school tomorrow, SHIT you know. hahaa.. Of course Niq is happy bout it.

Im not planning to work tomorrow, cause i cant be bothered. so tired. heehehe.. I just wanna sleep and rot the whole day tomorrow, its been awhile since i pay attention to myself.

Not attending work but i heard alot about this new girl. and what i heard are not nice comments. SHIT. She is so annoying pushing and bossing people around. Damn.

I think I should be a bitch.
I will. hehe.. so girly I know, but sometimes i have to admit fighting her in a girly way might help.

Back to the building..

2009-10-12T19:27:00.003+08:00

We are all back in school, and as usual full attendance for today. hahaha.. We will wait and see the next few weeks ok.. haha

Some are missing from class, like BOYONG. he got into Temasek Polytechnic.. Good to know that he made it like finally.

Mavis was missing cause she thinks that there is no need to aattend the first class. Amazingly she texted ALUS and asked her bout the next class, which apparently we need not attend as the teacher is not around. hahahaa..

Guess she was in school when she texted ALUS. SELENGER or wad? ahah

Oh ya, Im stressed up cause of money. DAMN IM BROKE LA DEYYY.. pay come in quick pleaase!!.. hahaah..

Busy,busy, school around the corner..

2009-10-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

Ok been busy.. SO SORRY LAA...
Work has been okay..
Been sweating alot during work lately..
School is just around ther corner..
I know this is abit outdated, But I got my GPA 4.
I don't feel good about it.

I miss my TGM crew.
I miss my Gelek Joms crew.
Errr... I'm gonna finish my motorbike practicals asap..

Randomly I'm starting to eat alot of chocolates lately..

I miss having someone special, but what the heck.
I miss having someone calling me to ask hows my day..
best part ever i miss cuddling with someone.

ok Im done blabbering..

Hello MegaZip!

2009-09-25T19:29:00.002+08:00

OK, I got a job interview today at 10 am, and it took like 2 hrs for them to interview me, its a new attraction actually in SENTOSA. Ya, you might ask why the hell am I there again, lets just say fate can't bring me and sentosa apart! ahhaahaha..

3 people interviewed me, and I got the job on the spot, woohooooooo.... if you can't see it let me type it again, I GOT IT ON THE SPOT I am so happy eventhough the pay is not as much as what i tought it would be, but hey its still a job!

And yeah finally i got to meet HELME AND AMINAH like after soooo long.. missed them.. so yeah and KAK ROS as well hehehe..

I got work tomorrow at 1-7, and the best part ever, the hours are pretty short for that kind of job!! ahahahaa..

and the 30th i just cant wait to go out with you guyss!!! see you guys sooon!!!

Ok im done bragging about it, before I make this post a very long one

I can't wait for 30th

2009-09-23T15:15:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile since I met the whole class, Im dying to meet them, I have yet to set the time and place to meet for our raya outing!! weee.. I miss School Sadded! i know haha.. '

So my cousins came over for raya. Shocking ain't it. Haish. Its hard to predict things nowadays. Oh yeah, I'm still waiting for my laptop. A new one that is. I can't wait, cause my old one is spoilt. Guess wad was the prob? haha.. It is the mother board again! wasted kannnnnn.. Tau

Ok im done blabbering.

Its down and Im complaining.

2009-09-22T13:20:00.002+08:00

My lappie is down!!! omg!! its been awhile since i blog. Damn, nothing new happend actually. I just cant wait to go out for raya with the rest of the gang! weee!! ok now my cousin is watching me type, so KPO. GTG chaos!

Late Photo updates, AND KUIH MAKING SESSION

2009-09-06T01:42:00.005+08:00

My "shift" started at 3, the only reason why I am that late is because I was sleeping, tired sia!!
I went to Alus's place to help her mum make some HARI RAYA kuih! hahha. I have no idea what kuih is called in english, so lets just stick to kuih ok! hhee

We made 3 types of kuih, Almond london, " I don't know what is it called kuih" and chocolate conrflakes.
hehe.. So fun, and of cause the tasting part also! hehe..

But sadly, Alus only snapped the photo of the Almond london. Sadded. ehehe.. I broke fast at her place as well, eventhough I didn't even fast today! EHEM. I got to eat my long awaited Why must i eatDENGDENG!. DENGDENG at her place you might ask. Its because I'm so lazy to go and buy it at geylang.
So many people!! hehe

So yeah!!.. we studied after that with the usual cliques! hehe.. errrr... what else. actually nothing else! oh ya, I have photos to upload. Its very late but wth! hehe..

These are the photos that we took on our way to school on teacher's day to study!

Thats all folks!

Its happening and both are gone!

2009-09-04T15:29:00.002+08:00

I hate to say this but just leave my family alone. You motherfuckers know nuts what is happening in this house, So jolly well get your facts right before you shoot.

To the person who spammed my facebook, call yourself an adult, can you please jolly well act like one. Stop being a blinded mice and open up your fucking eyes, to your family, its actually worst then mine. Oh please don't act as if you are not wrong.

MY FAMILY WON'T DIE NOT HAVING YOU TWO AROUND AND ALSO, YOU PEOPLE TO GET INVOLVE IN IT!

ok. nuff anger vented.

Now lets see, my exams are on monday, yeay, it will end soon, the trauma.
I'm sick and tired looking at the same sheet of paper, during every revision! aahaha...

so yeah. Holidays are just around the corner, and OH! there is no more work! damn! no more income. Shit! need to get a part time job soon! haishh!!

Strange? Weird? you tell me.

2009-09-01T19:33:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling strange around you.I have no idea why, Maybe I should start to avoid?
I don't know why I suddenly feel uncomfortable around you, actually I have no reason to. But what the heck do I have to have reasons for everything I do or act on?

Great, the fact that I'm facing you in most situation, is another thing.

How?

To avoid or not?
To getaway or not?
Sheesh! I'm confused.

tu la am, kau yg carik penyakit sendiri. hmm.. pelik tapi benar. Kadang- kadang geram jugak ngn kau. Tak tipu. haish

I'm so full.

2009-08-31T21:42:00.003+08:00

Today we had a test. well, basically this test was apparently a planned 1, we actually get to practice before the paper. weehee.. Insyallah pass yer!

It's Monday and as usual I had my break fast with Alus. We had loads to eat today,
Sushi; we each had 5 types of sushi-s
Old Chang Kee; as usual. Nuggets, Mushroom ball and Curry'o
Drinks as usual will be Sarsi, and chrysanthemum tea.

OMG. Its alot I tell you, and I wonder why this always happen. We apparently bought our drinks in cans. After which we will request a packet of ice to go together with that. But here is the funny part, everytime I transfer my drink into the packet, I will end up with a hole in my packet, sad or what.

So just now was funny a few min before breaking fast, I discovered a hole in my packet drink, AGAIN!.
Alus, said this " kenape asyik Am ajek yang asyik kene eh?"

you know what? I can't answer that question. haha its just my luck i guess.. hmmm..

Tomorrow, I'm having study time at school.. Thanks to Mr sheikh, he willingly opened the class for us.

**And OH YA!! HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS OUT THERE!

Happy birthday Reezlyn Edzrina bte Md Razali

2009-08-31T00:31:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to my dear cuzzie who just turned 18.
May all your wishes come true, and enjoy your teen years while it last!!
Kereta pergi tukar ye!

Tolongggggggggggggggggggggg...........

2009-08-30T14:51:00.003+08:00

So far as I've counted the days its already 5 days straight that I have been revising.
I'm kinda sick of ADE already or should i say muak. Its always the same question, and right from the start if you don't understand that particular concept, then its no use trying to do it over and over again.

I've been having mind blocks lately, and its starting to be earlier than usual, Usually i geddit only after 2 or 3 hours of studying, but now its not even 1 hour, and I'm having this mind block shit. SHEEEEESSSHHH...

Gimme a break will ya?

Its 2 weeks to exam yet I'm still struggling. Been asking for teacher's help, and yah, I'm striving hard for only one thing, that certificate of merit! yes.

I got it all planned out, after that its back to poly, and then I got something to prove to this household members of mine.

HAHA. Adding to that not only me who is having these mind blocks. ALUS and YAYA as well.. ahaah..
They are also having a hard time. Alus keeps saying "bosan" while Yaya just gets distracted. For me? I will always run off for a smoke.. Mood swings from every one as well. hmm...

Lets just pray all this will be over..

KFC; The stress about the pay

2009-08-28T11:59:00.005+08:00

I had KFC for break fast today with Ushuk Cat.. We planned it like 3 days ago on what to eat during our break fast at work.

Yaya actually joined us for break fast. Its annoying actually when our plan didn't work. We decided to have Old Chang Kee again, just to break our fast, amazingly we were full!! hahaa.. So instead of having a full meal at KFC we ate Cheese fries and mashed potato. Oh ya, and also Yumi Yoghurt!! haha.. so the gemok! I know!

ok randomly, I bought this pacifier for Ushuk! haha.. it has an impression of a a mouth and teeth to it. Its actually a sweet. I just wanted her to look stupid!

oh! oh! We just got our pay! Omg. Me and yaya decided to check on our pay at Ushuk's house. Apparently, Pay was more then expected and there were abit of mix up for yaya's pay.

So we decided to let her not have her pay! hehehe. We asked her to check the log book again tomorrow! kesian la die.. ahah..
So yeah. like finally i get to save my money! hehe..

OK I'm done blabbering!

Study! Study! and more study

2009-08-28T01:09:00.002+08:00

Its been 3 days straight and my brain is so shagged. We have been studying the whole time. The fatigue is getting to me.

I want exams to be over soon. Please. I have been eating alot lately. I think because of the stress la..

Hmmph.. We ( Me, Yaya, Alus, Zai, and Hasri ) have been concentrating on ADE. Practice, practice and more practice. Haish..

I've been planning on what coloour baju raye should I wear this year. Puase lom complete nak pikir pasal raye. hehe.. Planned to wear white with Alus and yaya. Anyone wearing white? hehe.. Today Im having FIA practical test. How? haha.. nobody knows how to connect accept Niq and bernard. Hmmm..

I guess I should be sleeping now!

Selamat bersahur,
Selamat Pagi!

HAHAHA

Why did they even propose this module?

2009-08-27T10:52:00.004+08:00

Why did they even propose this lifeskills module?
Its so draggy la! haha and why am i complaining?
I have no idea, Im sitting beside Alus and she is blogging as well!! How I know? I jus took a peek at her computer just now.

We played a very random game, I call it the "Name the song title game!" haha.. Its quite fun actually, I've yet to wait for Alus reply. hehe.

Wth?! hahahahaha.. This is so random la I know! hahah.
Blog pasal aper jek tau dektu!

This sucks, We have ADE later. Have to finish up the project later. Damn!
Kadang- kadang kan ku bertanyer pade diri sendiri aper masalah cikgu-cikgu sekarang?

hmmm....

Been busy lately, things to hand in, things to prepare for exam. shucks! I wanna stay at home can?

Sahur! Sahur!

2009-08-26T05:31:00.003+08:00

Its 5.34am in the morning raining cats and dogs now. Wow. How nice it is to cuddle myself with the blanket. hehe.

I don't know why am I online in the morning.
I feel so full that I can't sleep.
I can't sleep now cause my stomach will feel uncomfortable when I wake up for school later.

And guess what? I just saw Niq adopted my sheep in FARMVILLE like 34 min ago.
So now I know how she managed to harvest and steal everyone else's crops! She has been online in the morning the whole time! Darn it.

**ANNOUNCEMENT TO ALL DS0904K! THOSE WHO ARE INVOLVED IN FARMVILLE OR BARN BUDDY, PLEASE, I REPEAT PLEASE BE ONLINE AS EARLY AS YOU CAN. ANIQAH IRDANI HAS BEEN STEALING OUR CROPS AND ITS TIME TO GET BACK AT HER!**

Jahat ehh.. haha..

Ok nuff said, Alus texted me, asking me to check her FB for her.. hehe.. Chaos

Breaking Fast at work for the first time

2009-08-24T22:56:00.004+08:00

Work was great, annoying-ly Alus was really hyper despite the fact that we are fasting. haha..

Initial plan was to Break Fast at Mcdonalds, but since Alus's mum invited me to her house to have a proper meal, then I decided to have my "Full" dinner at her place.!! ahha.. Her mum cooked something which I would like to call, Mee Soup Campak, cause there were alot of ingredient involved. haha..

It was really fun. So instead of having McD, We had Old Chang Kee, I bought Chicken and Mushroom O and Nuggets, However my dear Alus ate Doublecheese Burger, nuggets and carrot cake (the one @ Old Chang Kee). Banyak kan!!! Hish tak padan kecik nyer pendek.
While waiting me and Alus went crazy taking photos of ourselves.. so here are the photos, SUMPAH BUROK SESANGAT...

What was the motive for the chair? I have no idea.. haha.. In times of hunger, Sometimes whatever that is in your mind you can't explain.

Why did......

2009-08-22T20:51:00.004+08:00

Why did god create human?
Why did god create human with different attitudes and personalitites?
Why did god create families?
Why did god create family problems?
Why did god group humans together and made it call family?

All these questions are related to one thing, FAMILY. and its a question to all.
To think that all of it leads to something that i can't even explain myself. Apparently, Im not having the time of my life living in this family. Hate to say this but I just have to live with it.

Ramadhan = loose weight?

2009-08-22T01:28:00.003+08:00

Its Ramadhan.
Loose weight? Lets keep on dreaming.
Too many other things to worry about.
More workload, More stress..

Project - Lifeskills & ADE
Exams - ADE & WWN

Wow! Things to do. too little time. Hmm.. Its 3 1/2 more hours to go till Sahur. Should I sleep? Or should I wait?

Sleep. Thats it!

The week has been a busy one!

2009-08-20T19:52:00.005+08:00

Tuesday,

We had pizza on tuesday, commemorating Mr sheikh's birthday! woohoo!! we ate till our stomach ached. Apparently we ordered 6 pizzas. OMG. thats the start of "Lets get fat week".. hehe..
It was fun! hhaha. Pictures taken, foods eaten! even so much so that we didn't have time to plan it properly, it actually turned out great!

These are the pics!This is not because I'm taking picture with alus, its because i look good in this photo dat is why I'm posting it

Wednesday,

It was a test day I must say, there were 2 tests on that day, No fun at all, been studying, at first we had FIA test, well this one is an exception, we actually copied directly from the assignment 3 Mr Mok gave us the other day. We are bad people I know. And yes yaya brought to school, durian puffs!! ORG GILER JEK TAK MAKAN DURIAN! hehe, since Niq was the only one who did not favour the smell of durians, we teased her by breathing through our mouths after each durian puffs we had! hee..

After that we had WWN, test, was confident on passing this one, cause we "really" studied. haha. but sad to say, I had a mind block during the test so this 1 particularly ridiculous stupid question, I didn't manage to answer! stupid right. Mr Sheikh just rephrased the sentence, how dumb can I get?? ahha.. but its ok! so yeah, we played TRUE or DARE after the test. Which actually let out alot of secrets between Me, Alus, Yaya, Zai and Zaid. diam-diam ehh.. hehee..

Thursday,

Today? We had ADE, Yes the most grueling and frustrating subject ever. haha.. We did our mini project, and today we did the soldering part. It was tidious! seriously, even my hands was shaking while holding onto the soldering Iron. I burnt my hand abit, but it was worth it as Its all donee!! weehee!! School has been great so far.. haha.

What else? nothing else! heehe.. nuff said bebeh! outs.

And to the both of you, it was great to see both of you talk, and looks like everything will be fine in time to come. I'm just happy to see you guys are back to normal. :):):)

Reports, Projects & Tests

2009-08-17T23:41:00.004+08:00

Wednesday - WWN test/ FIA test
Thursday - Lifeskills report
Friday - FIA test (theory)

Omg everything is so packed this week, and it is just getting started. Not fair I know. But hey, I want it to be over and done with. SOOONN..

Upcoming events, Mr sheikh's birthday, and Ramadhan is just around the corner. hmmm..

Guys, break-fast at Geylang?

WEEEHEEEE.. can't wait for school!

So much for fun?

2009-08-17T01:23:00.004+08:00

Came back from KL.
Trip home sucks big time
Sister is an ass.
Maybe not talking to her is way better.
Grandma is so BIAS. Yes, BIAS.
I want them both out of the house.
Both of them combined, put in a home and I shall bomb them.
sumpah aku tak heran dengan dieorg

I need to get that certificate of merit.
Need to be more than what she is.
Thinks I can do way better.
Leave home and bring parents along.
FUCK those two bitches.

To try to control temper.
Anger management counselling will really help.
Learn to be patient. AGAIN.

The First Day;

2009-08-14T11:59:00.002+08:00

I'm in Kuala lumpur finding time to take a rest, yes rest. Apparently, my cousins and aunties have been bringing us out from morning till night. Im tired. WAHHH... hahaha.

In the morning, we went for breakfast at USJ 2, after that headed to my aunt's tuition centre. headed home thinking that i could have a nap. But no, we went to Sunway Pyramid and walked around, as usual money was spent there as well.

At night we went to have dinner at a steam boat restaurant, It was great, trust me I have been eating non stop to that my abang sedare bring us to uptown. by now it was already 10+. Oh wait before that we went back home at my aunty's to celebrate my sister's birthday. Yes she was shocked.

getting back to , my abang sedare, we went "uptown" shah alam with his frens, its like another bugis there. I bought what i have to, we reached home at 3 am! so tired!!! haiyoo!! hahaha lets see wads gonna happen today! hah

In Kuala Lumpur

2009-08-13T14:51:00.004+08:00

I woke up early at 4am today, headed down to Changi airport. Well, its early I must say, hahha. I was really shagged. I sms-ed who I was supposed to and headed off to KL.

I am tired, now, I'm supervising them playing twister while we wait for the big surprise for sister's birthday. Its really really tiring, jet lag? HAHA. What the hell, jet-lag for only a 35 min flight?

Mepek kan.. I know.. haha.. Will update again bout my sister's birthday surprise kae. Pictures will be uploaded!! weee!!!

3 more days to go, now I miss school

The stress and sleepiness got to us!

2009-08-11T16:54:00.003+08:00

The whole day we had the same module lesson. I cant blame them if they become like ME and ALUS. I swear to god, I dun know what got into her, for me, I was just joining in the fun! weehee..

Ni lah orang baru bangun tidur!

"Which counter will you choose? Counter A?"

"Or Counter B?"

Annoying kan perangai! hehe..

I don't understand?

2009-08-11T10:22:00.002+08:00

Where the hell am I now? hehe..
In SCHOOL.

What the hell am I doing??
PROJECT.

I don't even know why am I doing it cause I don't understand a single thing. And as Im typing this, Alus is actually staring aat the screen. KPO I know! haha..

Cute ehh.. So should I do the project? I have no idea, if i were to ask Alus, her answer would be tepuk breasts tanyer appetite. hehe.

Gosh seriously, waste time only in school! hehe. Okay lah, i have to get back to work. Nuff said. Blog again at home. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its giving me a headache

2009-08-10T22:24:00.002+08:00

You know when something is all planned out and everything is set, yet somewhere deep in your mind is saying that you should not go.

Im still contemplating but my aunt is expecting me to be there. I miss her, really I do. we were chatting in facebook. How I wish things could be better.

Aini

3 hari lg

10:22pmAmrean

cik ani

mirah gado ngn kakak

camner

sedih la sgt

10:23pmAini

ala pujuk aje kakak

10:25pmAmrean

pujuk ke aper

haishh

susah la

10:25pmAini

pujuk aje

ckp sorie abis citer

10:25pmAmrean

ala cik ani takder pat sini

susah.

haish

ngok la mlm

mcm aner

10:26pmAini

ala mengalah bukan makna nya kalah

10:26pmAmrean

tau

mmg nak mengalah

tapi aper die ckp tu la

sakit hati sgt2

10:27pmAini

ala tutup mata pekak telinga abis cerita

lama2 gaduh wat per

mira n kakak dua beradik aje

10:28pmAmrean

tau

mmg nak pekakan telinga pon

haish

10:28pmAini

mira cuba mlm ni k

10:28pmAmrean

ni klu ceritekan cik ani pon mirah leh nangis lagik kot

10:29pmAini

cik ani jumpa mira this thurs k

10:29pmAmrean

insyallah

10:29pmAini

kite p genting gamble

10:29pmAmrean

hehe

gamble klu menag takper

haha

gamble klu kalah

aper cerite

10:29pmAini

harap2 menang

10:29pmAmrean

haha

10:30pmAini

if kalah gigit jari la namanya

10:30pmAmrean

haha

cik ani

kat sane bdae kek brape

10:31pmAini

ala rm40

10:31pmAmrean

kiter belikan untk kakak k

10:31pmAini

xper nanti cik ani yg beli

kt celebrate kat rumah cik dah

10:31pmAmrean

okayy

10:32pmAini

okay i c u thurs morning k

10:32pmAmrean

haishh..

10:32pmAini

bye cik ani nak mandi baru balik tuition

10:32pmAmrean

okkk..

10:32pmAini

penat

10:32pmAmrean

busuk!

haha

kk2.. g mandi

I miss her sia.. but what can I do, to make things better??

Like Finally,

2009-08-10T03:57:00.003+08:00

This is the first time I changed my blog skin, with zaid's help! woohoo!! yeay! Im liking this skin actually.

OMG! haha.. Great! Lets enjoy, and of course for the first time I have links! weeeheee..
ok nuff said!

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE; In school

2009-08-09T18:40:00.006+08:00

Celebrating Keling birthday and National day in class.

Being our patriotic selves, we celebrated singapore's birthday in advanced (requested by ruzaini to change the english context by the word "advanced" instead of "early"). Watching the fireworks at Marina Barrage. Happy 44th birthday SINGAPORE.